Loss of hair..........

 

This picture was taken in 2008. It brought me to tears posting it tonight.  I had forgotten what I looked like with my hair gone, and I can't believe it's going to happen again, probably after the next cycle of chemo  starting next week. I've been jokingly asking any and everyone to pray for me to keep my hair, or at least let it "thin out".  I was given a pamphlet on how to "deal with hair loss".. This is what it said, " The best way for you to deal with impending hair loss is to plan ahead and focus on making yourself comfortable with your appearance.  When your hair starts to grow back it may be a different color and or texture."     Okay, nothing prepares you for this.  My hair grew back snow white and is still snow white if I didn't color it.  It also grew back curly, curls so tight that the only way to describe it was that it was like a sheep or a really bad toni home permanent....ha ha funny I know, but you couldn't pull your fingers thru it, it was so tight. Thankfully the longer it grew the weight of the hair pulled the curl out, along with many treatments to straighten it.  I know it's only "hair" and it will grow back.  I think this is one of the hardest parts of dealing with cancer again.  I do have a beautiful wig and kept a few scarfs, so I'm "prepared", just hoping to put it off as long as I can.   xo Marcia