As the Chemo Drips...

After beating ovarian cancer once, I've been re-diagnosed. Here I'll share my journey of chemotherapy and surgery including the ups and downs, laughter and tears and everything in between.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

perspective

I've finally come out of my "chemo coma".  Still feeling nauseous, taking drugs every 4 hours and trying not to think about it.  I've got plans for today and hope that I will be able to fulfill them.  In short, a friend is involved with a organization called  "Kids Kicking Cancer". Every year she has a huge Halloween party for the kids at her house.  The kids get to come and have fun and trick or treating on Tillson Street in town, something they aren't a normally able  to do, due to their illness.  Lots of food, pumpkins, playing in leaves etc...  Beth and I went and had a great time.  One little girl stood out , her name is Kate.  She was dressed as Tinkerbell, her wings lighted and twinkling.  She just got out of the hospital the day before so she could come to the party.  I looked at her, bald and cute as can be, with a big smile on her face and it puts it all in perspective for me.  Here I am, almost 53, and feeling sorry for myself, when this child has been thru so much in her short life, way more that I've gone thru. I'm hoping that I can keep Kate's image in my mind when I go for chemo on Wednesday, and put my "big girl pants on" and get this done.    "Faith is not knowing what the future holds...But knowing who holds the future".

posted by Marcia Bolam @ 5:16 AM  

3 Comments:

  • At October 25, 2011 at 4:50 PM , Anonymous Ruth Heidebreicht said...

    Marcia, I wish there was a way to post a picture -or I would post a picture of Kate - she is one of our littlest warriors and she is a true hero. She wanted so badly to come because she had such a nice time at the summer party. At the summer party her mom and dad took her out of the hospital the night before after she had a really bad week - this time - they took her out Sunday - a couple of hours before the party and as you could see - she was quite sick. But she hung in there ALL day! She is an amazing spirit to meet. She has this high little voice - but when everything is quiet and she starts to talk - you can't help but listen - she is a very deep thinker - she 'sees' everything and understands more than you can possibly imagine. I know how you feel - I can't get her out of my thoughts - for days I think of her after visiting her - and I cry every time I type her name...because I hope I will be able to see her next year at the swimming party - just like most of the others - with hair and some more weight on and that gleaming rosy cheeky smile that just melts all your own cares away. I know I will - and I can't wait! I'mposting more pics today on FB in the album KKC Halloween 2011 - and she is on the cover. Goodluck on Wednesday - I'll get ahold of you later on in the week - call if you need anything.
    Ruth Heid

     

  • At October 25, 2011 at 5:00 PM , Anonymous Shirley said...

    Marcia....I'm so glad that you were able to do "Tillson Street" with the kids. Craig said it is a truly amazing thing....to see and talk to these children. I'm only sorry that we never had the opportunity to do it when we lived there. Whenever I hear about children and this disease...I can't help but remember Drew and his battle. There is hope for everyone....hang on..everyone's prayers are with you..love
    Shirley

     

  • At October 26, 2011 at 12:12 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    hi marcia! just checking in on you sweetie! stay strong, you are an amazing woman! you are in my thoughts and prayers! patty

     

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