After last weeks chemo I told Bob that I needed to get away for a few days, let's take the camper and go to Erie.  So off we went, pulling the little one behind us.  I had a very relaxing 5 days at Pat & Jim's...did nothing but hang out at the pool, dinner with friends and slept...just what I needed.  This weeks chemo didn't go as well, in fact it was one of the worst ones yet..and hopefully my last!!!  I've been sick in bed for days, only managing to stay up for and hour or two, then it's back to bed I go.  Really feeling down and depressed, hoping that when I see the Dr. on the 10th we can get the cat scan scheduled and move onto the new chemo treatment.  I do know that if I went in for hydration I'd feel better, but the thought of going actually makes me sick to my stomach.   The bright side is I have a whole week off of no Dr.s so maybe we can take off for a few days and go camping!  Looking forward to Riley's 2nd birthday this Saturday and my 35th class reunion on Sunday...goals to look forward to and feel better for.  Hoping everyone has a wonderful holiday week-end..can't believe summer is "over"..but so looking forward to the cooler fall weather. 

My week off of treatments has been very busy.  I went to Sugar Creek Ohio with Tracey & Beth for a girlfriends getaway. Beth is starting her "new" life next week by going back to college.  She is in a two year program to become a respiratory therapist.  Tracey's job as a math tutor is up in the air, a lot of changes at the schools so she will be put into a different position..hopefully....and well I'm still fighting cancer.  We decided that this was the only opportunity we had to go and have fun so we did.  I got home on Wednesday and on Thursday had to go to the hospital for a bone scan.  Major struggle for the nurse to get a vein in my hand, after poking around I told him he had 10 seconds left before I was either going to throw up or pass out..or both!  I have terrible veins and being dehydrated doesn't help, but man did it hurt.  He did make it on the 2nd try, now the back of my hand is sore and black and blue.....I had to come back 3 hours later to get put thru the machine..not a good thing being secured by a velcro wrap and unable to move at all.  Practiced breathing techniques and kept my eyes closed!  Not sure when I'll hear from Dr. Fata on the results of the test.  I don't have an appointment until Sept 10th, may asks on Tuesday when I go for chemo. Hoping that it's just old age and nothing serious, but if it is, we'll deal with it just like everything else.  Friday I had Matt & Sarah's little girl Riley for the day.  She is going to be 2 in a few weeks.  What a wonderful little girl she it...very independent!!  Bob & I took her to the Armada Fair to see and pet the animals.  Not sure who had more fun, me or her!  It was an exhausting day, I easily forgot how much "work" little ones are!!  Painted 1/2 of the interior of the little camper and hopefully will finish it later today or tomorrow.  I have some major gardening that needs to be done...6 new hostas that are still in the pots from being purchased over 2 months ago???  I want to move and split some and when I think about it , it becomes overwhelming to me and so I put it off..but time is running out..I have 2 more days before hopefully my last chemo treatments.  Going to be very positive about this and hope to make it thru without getting sick and being in bed for days.  Praying that the cat scan will show the tumor has shrunk more and we can move on to me being on a maintenance chemo that wont' be so hard on me.  Loving the cooler weather...can't wait to go to Maine in October ..lots to look forward to.........Peace & Love

Forgetting about Cancer....for awhile!!!

I'm going to start off on a positive note this time, as it seems all I write about is how crappy I've been feeling,  I have been "secretly" stalking web sites that have mini campers for sale, little tiny campers that are called "canned hams" etc.  I recently told Bob about my obsession. ( Oh Oh !!)  Going back a year or so, it was our plan to take several weeks and travel across the U.S, seeing all the sites, Mt Rushmore, Yellowstone, Salt Lake City, Kansas City BBQ!!! and were planning on using my brother in laws little pop up camper.  Then the cancer decided to derail those plans and it was all put on hold.  If I wasn't hooked on the web site pinterest, and they didn't have a section of cute tricked out campers, I might of not got myself hooked again.  So needless to say, I am now the proud owner of a 1963 Metzendorf camper!!!  It is beyond cute, tiny, sleeps 2, no kitchen or bath, just a bed and a table that folds down into another bed.  The guy who we bought it from re-did the whole thing, I only want to paint the inside from blue to beige and have new cushions made to a fabric I like.  If you go on my face book page I will have photos of it there soon!  Bob say's it's the happiest he's seen me in along time!!!  It is parked in the driveway and we had a pizza party in it last night with friends and neighbors, and I spent a very peaceful night sleeping in it listening to the rain on the awning!.  One fun thing about it is that it has a bear alarm, a button you push and it sounds like a tornado siren going off!  Ok so now back to the Dr. news.  Even thou I'm getting progressively sicker with the chemo he wants me to have one more round................I'm scheduled to have a bone scan done on my hip-pelvic bone this thursday to see what is causing the constant pain.  I will have another cat scan done in September to see what is happening with the tumor and re-evaluate what the next step should be.  He feels that my CA-125 is at a plateau and has no cause for worry.  It has been a year this past week that I have been going thru all of this again.  I can't begin to thank all my friends and family, and people I don't personally know that have been keeping me in their prayers.  I'm not sure how long the "high" of my new playhouse on wheels will keep me going, but I plan on spending alot of time in there sleeping and reading !   I've put the whole cancer crap out of my head for now, Beth, Tracy and I are going on a girls trip this week to Sugar Creek Ohio , and am looking forward to a chemo, Dr. free week!!!!  Peace & Love to All....................Marcia