Week # 4

Well if I thought week # 3 sucked..this past week I don't have any words to describe it.  It started off bad, got worse and now I'm just tolerating it.  I developed a fistula, a hole in the wall of my colon and vagina,  I leak fecal matter out my vagina all day...all night . I know it sounds gross and it really is.  The cure to this is to have an colostomy, something we were trying not to have happen.  I have an appointment with a colon-rectal dr next week to go over what is going to happen.  We are not sure if he will try and remove some of the cancer or just leave it alone.  There are so many questions that need to be answered and hopefully he will have the answers  I'm terrified of having this surgery, and wish there was some other way to take care of this, but this is how they fix it so......I've finally got my pain somewhat under control.  Taking 2 pain pills every 4 hours keeps it manageable.  I've been trying to get up out of bed for a few hours every day, but usually find myself laying on the couch.  Abby & Bob have been such wonderful caretakers of me.  Abby usually spends thursdays with me and the past two weeks she's been in a baking mood.   She has baked 120 cupcakes, zucchini bread, pumpkin bread, and pumpkin cookies!  I haven't been much help to her, but we enjoy spending the time talking while she's mixing away!  Bob has been unbelievable with getting my medicines and running to Kroger everyday, there's always something that I need to have!  So............I keep hoping that one of these weeks I'll have some good news but for now it looks like were going backwards and not forward.  Chemo continues on tues and have a cat scan on wed.
                                     
Peace & Love