Once again I' m back

It's been 2 months since I last posted on the blog...didn't realize it's been that long.  I "quit" blogging for several reasons, number 1 being I was so pissed and angry that I have to go thru this once again and I just didn't want to talk about it.  I still don't like to talk about it, it has consumed my life even thou I try and not let it.  July was not a very good month for me health wise,  I had to go into the ER for blood transfusions, 3 bags of blood took 7 hours and I still didn't feel all that great after,  Then the following week I had my cat scan and came home and got sick, throwing up every 10 mins for approx 5 hours until I gave in and had Bob and Abby take me to the ER once again.  IV anti nausea medicine and 2 bags of fluids and I was on my way.

This week I was told that the chemo that I've been on for the last 3 months isn't doing what the Dr, had hoped..shrinking the tumor.  So in a few weeks I'll start on a new chemo, once a week for 12 weeks. 

Trying to stay positive about all of this, most days I can but man I would just like a break to feel like normal and to be able to go shopping or drive my car.  I've become quite a homebody and don't like to leave my comfort zone of home.  We did get away for a few days to the vintage camper show, I did ok but was ready to come home.  Leaving to go to Erie for a family vacation with Abby and Dan , hoping I'll be able to tolerate the long car ride.  I can feel the tumor and it hurts to sit for any period of time, so we may be making a few extra stops along the way.

Will try and keep up with this as I've been getting e-mails and phone calls from friends wondering what is going on with me.  For right now, I'm going to try and enjoy my week off from chemo and relax before starting it up again.

                                                  Peace & Love