Here we go again

Well it's been another rough week here at the Bolam house with me trying to make it thru a week of chemo.  Again taking the claritan didn't seem to help much at all.  On top of that, I've come down with a cold and sore throat, something I haven't had in years.  So all around feeling miserable and sleeping for days.  I did have a incident with Dr.Fata and his nurse and therapist last week that put me way over the edge.  Not even sure how to explain what went down, but went in for my routine blood draw and they said the Dr. wanted to talk to me for a minute.  Why I didn't go get Bob in the waiting room is beyond me, but I didn't think anything of it. ( chemo brain )  A few minutes later the Dr, nurse and therapist walk in the room , making me feel like I was being ambushed.  They said one of the girls said I "looked mad" and they wanted to diffuse the situation if I had any issues/.   WTF!!!!!  I was so angry I couldn't even talk, told them they were crazy, that I was going for my PET scan in a few minutes and hadn't had food or coffee for 28 hours and maybe that's why I looked un-happy.   I got up and walked out and the nurse and therapist both came to me and apologized.  The best part of all of this was Tanya, my nurse loudly ripping into them about what they did and me telling her to be quiet so she wouldn't get in trouble.   So now totally pissed off, I have to go and have my PET scan, where I have to remain "calm and relaxed' for an hour.  Most of that relaxing time was spent crying into the crappy blanket they gave me while curled up in a chair.

I did make a phone call to the nurse when I got home and told her how un-professional I thought they all were.  She told me that the girl at the desk said I was mad that they didn't have my files that I requested.  Funny thing is, I never asked for them, it was never brought up, I completely forgot about them.  I feel that it was a complete set up  and you can be sure Dr Fata will hear how I feel when I have my conference with him on friday.  She also stated that it seems like they are making a "bigger" issue out of me wanting a 2nd opinion.....seriously??????  You think?????  All I want is to see if another Dr.has a different plan on treating me and the cancer.  I don't think it's asking too much.

I do have my 2nd opinion appointment on tuesday of this week with Dr. Pugmire, the Dr. my gynecologist referred me to.  Bob and Abby will go with me and hopefully we will get some answers.  This is going to be a mentally trying week, meeting with a new Dr. getting the PET scan results and meeting with Dr Fata, all while not feeling well.   UGH  

While several of my close confidantes are going thru their own issues. they still are there for me and I can't thank them enough for listening to me.  Most times we just end up crying from laughing at the absurdity of what it going on....Abby is my keeper of the Faith,when mine wavers she is there to pick up the pieces and get me back on track believing that it will all work out.  Can't believe my baby girl just turned 27 years old!  and nurturing her mother now!  And some happy news, my nephew Matthew and his wife Sarah welcomed their healthy son Colin Jacob into the world on the 4th of July.

Praying that I'm feeling better soon, and this week will go by quickly and smoothly

                                          Peace & Love