It only lasted a few hours

Briefly, this is what has happened over the past few days.     We met with the new oncologist and immediately liked him right away. After reviewing my charts he told us that I don't need maintenance chemo, that there are no studies that support it etc....basically I've been receiving it  for the past year or so for no apparent reason.  He was surprised by a lot of the decisions that Dr Fata had made, tests that weren't requested etc.   He also told me that chemo would stop right then.  So we were more than happy to hear that news.  It took awhile for the PET scan to get to the Dr.  Dr. Fata's office wouldn't release it and I had to go back and forth to his office and the place where it was done and demand a copy be sent to Dr. Pugmire.  Since we had been there for several hours, the Dr said he would call me at home with the results when and if the report ever got there.

Later that night I received a phone call from Dr. Pugmire telling me that something didn't look right on the PET scan, that there was a "thickening" in the rectal wall that needed to be looked at.

Going to jump right to it now, had a scope and biopsy yesterday and it's not looking good. The Dr. feels that it is cancer but won't know for sure until after the biopsy comes back, probably by wed of next week.  So.....the happiness and joy that was here only lasted a few hours and now we are picking ourselves up once again  Bob and Abby have had their moments.  I'm still having mine and not sure when I'll be over it.  I feel so betrayed by Dr. Fata for things he did and didn't do..mainly DIDN'T and mentally am not prepared to deal with  any of this.   IF there is something good that can come out of this is to hope that the cancer is from the ovarian cancer and not a different one.  If it's connected to the ovarian cancer, Dr Pugmire will be the one treating me..otherwise I'll have to get a gastro Dr.

This will require surgery, something I'm not looking forward to.  The scopes of my bladder, vagina and rectum have left me feeling pretty sore, I can only imagine what surgery will feel like!  Thank God for good drugs.  I've decided to keep this info close to home for right now, only letting the few close friends and family know as it's too hard for me to even talk about it and to deal with phone calls etc. 

I will try and keep the blog up-dated but have to honestly say tears are streaming down my face as I type this,,,it is so utterly painful for me right now
                                                                      Peace & Love